tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89394120569878020652024-02-07T14:38:57.765-08:00The Path Less TraveledPookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-68187659372850356662011-07-03T09:42:00.000-07:002011-07-03T10:10:59.185-07:00Prayer<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9nIJbBs9uNro9osbcdOICtUrF4YGZ7ziJsWPaQLjfzaSzvuO_QX-tfpNS8pHnY8SSB4H0rjWizyQbfRF4lW_5CLLp-JJDLg4vyy_lwJUv09YhiOaJdwtXy2tnReRbMsiOgAVSLO-bj0m3/s1600/child-of-god-e1296494693812.gif"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 250px; height: 191px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9nIJbBs9uNro9osbcdOICtUrF4YGZ7ziJsWPaQLjfzaSzvuO_QX-tfpNS8pHnY8SSB4H0rjWizyQbfRF4lW_5CLLp-JJDLg4vyy_lwJUv09YhiOaJdwtXy2tnReRbMsiOgAVSLO-bj0m3/s320/child-of-god-e1296494693812.gif" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5625174685847502626" border="0" /></a><br />It's definitely been a while. Things are going well. The house is amazing. We are so blessed beyond belief. Every morning Clover and I go out to water the plants and then I sit and enjoy a cup of tea, watching my little sweet girl play in her yard while listening to all the beautiful birds. I love it! I love having a place that Clover can play and enjoy the outdoors. I love tending my garden and yard, molding it into something beautiful. It is very satisfying. This is the first time ever that my garden is a thriving healthy place. The plants are green and the tomatoes have little green ones growing already. I use herbs from my herb garden weekly. Its super fun to be able to go out and pluck various things to use in my cooking. Overall I am happy although I am still searching for something. As full as my life is and as blessed as we are I am not quite content. I don't know what it is I am looking for. More children, a purpose in life, a career, education, more things, friends, a different body, I don't know. As I pray about it over and over the answer I get is a deeper relationship with my God.<br /><br />My prayer:<br />Lord, Daddy, Abba, Father, I cry out to you today. I am missing something. There is a deep longing in my heart and I don't know what it craves. I try to fill it with things but I have yet to satisfy this longing. Lately I just want to drink and smoke away my thoughts. I am tired of obsessing over things of this world. I am blessed beyond measure with an amazing family, a beautiful home, food on the table, everything I need, but I am still missing something. I desperately long for more. Help me to fill this void. Guide me, show me where you want to take me. Open my eyes. Help me to be content. I love you with all my heart. Please take me in your arms. Let me feel your love. I need you. All I need is you. Thank you.<br /><br />Love,<br />your Baby Girl<br /><br />His answer:<br />Precious child of mine. I love you immeasurably. I knew you before you were even a thought in your parents minds. I long to spend time with you. Come to me. I will fill your void. Crawl into my lap; I will ease your torment. Study my word and live the life I have given you to its fullest. You are my beloved daughter. I love you with every inch of my being.<br /><br />Love,<br />your DaddyPookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-81770188681403685482011-04-18T10:39:00.000-07:002011-04-18T10:54:56.323-07:00Change...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq-js4OZHis4ixAJ_VA05OXGp3Mi8y4xUQ5UaEHJCrD8BGKjrcHsQcooWNNhEHgRAm1cJ_HD08Y4n0d81sk5uSUQmlhg__5jlMRhF1AqWKdeq2rjkKFK59kvkOzka38T3fjIGmiyI9HyE1/s1600/motorcycle+037.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq-js4OZHis4ixAJ_VA05OXGp3Mi8y4xUQ5UaEHJCrD8BGKjrcHsQcooWNNhEHgRAm1cJ_HD08Y4n0d81sk5uSUQmlhg__5jlMRhF1AqWKdeq2rjkKFK59kvkOzka38T3fjIGmiyI9HyE1/s320/motorcycle+037.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5596983493674869282" border="0" /></a><br />Wow...I am feeling so incredibly blessed and stressed at the same time. Pete and I are in the process of buying a house. We've been trying for about two months now unsuccessfully and I think it is about to happen. We've put in offer after offer and nothing has panned out. It was shaping up to be like our experience in San Diego and we were ready to give up. That same day, last Friday, things started looking up. Thanks to our parents and grandparents, as well as an awesome tax return we were able to pull together enough money for a down payment and things to get us started in our new house. This last house that we put an offer in on was approved by the the middle manager and we are waiting to hear if his boss approves. It should be in the bag since basically we accepted the terms of the banks counter offer. I am jumping out of my skin waiting. I am ready. We are ready...for our own space, something that we own, a bigger place, land, a garage, and all the things, good and bad, that go along with it. Who ever thought this process could be so stressful! Definitely a journey that I am ready to move on from.<br /><br />Pete and I also decided that it was time for Mason to move on. We definitely feel like bringing him into our home was the right choice but it is time for some change. After an immense amount of prayer and thought, neither one of us feel like we can be the kind of parents that he needs anymore. I am so thankful for this experience but as with the house journey I am ready to move on. The last 6 months have been full of trials and tribulations as well as joy and laughter. Mark has decided to take in this precious little boy and give him all the love he deserves. I am thankful for the people in my life that have provided so much love and support. This next month will have two life changing events and I can't wait to see what else is in store for my family. Bring it on!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-52108641482694097752011-03-12T06:32:00.000-08:002011-03-12T06:44:14.933-08:00Say What?!Week one of Weight Watchers went really well. Better than I expected even. There were a couple of days that I decided I was over it on day 3 and 4 but once I pushed through that it wasn't so bad. I am still super pumped about this. And...It's working!!!! I lost the two pounds that I was supposed to and my measurements went down.<br /><br />Weight: 188 total lost 2 lbs<br />Arms: 13 inches total lost 0 inches<br />Hips: 44.5 inches total lost .5 inches<br />Bust: 41 inches total lost 2.25 inches<br />Waist: 35.5 inches total lost 2.5 inches<br />Dress size: 14 nothing changed<br />Thighs: 26.5 inches total lost 1.5 inches<br /><br />Oh yeah...uh huh...I got this!!! So anyway. I am really proud of myself. My points have decreased from 31 to 30. Not bad. I am learning what to eat and what fills me up more that has less points so that's good. I don't think I have ever eaten so many fruit and veggies in my life (well maybe when I was a kid and Mommy still fixed my meals) so my body probably loves me right now. I'm not snacking throughout the day like I used to and if I get the munchies at night I load up on a fruit or veggie. This is awesome. I love the feeling of succeeding. I love that my goals are attainable and I am not going crazy trying to accommodate them. 2lbs and some inches down with several more to go but I am on my way!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-12624370771644580292011-03-06T07:43:00.000-08:002011-03-06T08:06:19.214-08:00On the Road Again<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisAor48E3lF6EsiRvaaoh2d069jDNAvflAoA7gUVY3Rt3fKRqvOo7hrz8trWylTvQRDsLw3nOc8IxShSoG2y7C54SONuMP1bmRQfu04XDT7NOfHdcn8pgK_IMHso55gFR0w6jkoajp1OS5/s1600/SANY0795.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisAor48E3lF6EsiRvaaoh2d069jDNAvflAoA7gUVY3Rt3fKRqvOo7hrz8trWylTvQRDsLw3nOc8IxShSoG2y7C54SONuMP1bmRQfu04XDT7NOfHdcn8pgK_IMHso55gFR0w6jkoajp1OS5/s320/SANY0795.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5580998889969267474" border="0" /></a><br />I am super excited! Yesterday my mom calls me and asks if I would want to join weight watchers with her. She said that if I was interested she would pay for it. I signed up on the spot. I desperately want to be healthy. I know where I am and it is not where I should be. In order to get to my healthy weight I get to lose 35 pounds at least. I feel like that is totally attainable. The first goal we set was to lose 5% of my body weight. So here's to the first 10 pounds. I am super pumped. What an opportunity I have been given. I really like this program because it teaches you how to sustain the weight loss. I get to eat anything I want but in moderation. Each food has a point value assigned to it. For example eggs are given 2 points per egg. I get 31 points per day plus an extra 49 points for the week to use whenever. Say I go out to dinner or to a party (hahah) I have a license to splurge a little. I am doing this all online so I don't have to go to meetings. I love that because with all the monkeys I will more than likely be skipping out on quite a few. This gives me no excuse. Also since my mom paid for it I am even more motivated. Usually I get super gassed up and ready to go and within a week my excitement teeters out. With this when my own motivation runs out I have her to fall back on. I am nervous just because it will be challenging for a little bit trying to figure everything out and keep track of all my food. Once I get past that hump it should just get easier and easier which will lead to a new way of eating and living. There will be some bumps along the way but that is a part of life. YEAH!!! Thank you Lord for my beautiful life which you have blessed me with and this body that is capable of many things. So here's to my health quest! Ready...Set...GO!!!<br /><br />Starting measurements:<br /><br />Weight: 190<br />Arms: 13<br />Hips:45<br />Bust: 43.3<br />Waist: 38<br />Thighs: 27<br />Dress size: 14-16Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-402883132696107672011-01-24T07:54:00.000-08:002011-01-24T08:39:58.099-08:00Here We Go!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuAiUjDsYwdRiOZWmVPMYEJfkQlGEXO6zmtbl3XnHMR-OvylAvL38gk9APflUePglwWhikbwYUZWO9mMenEjj0pnEv_BQ5_B_dBEdoayjDYvKaQ8A5ZKkLHtgWOsQ1kaI6AHKUV9TDqCUB/s1600/pics+005.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuAiUjDsYwdRiOZWmVPMYEJfkQlGEXO6zmtbl3XnHMR-OvylAvL38gk9APflUePglwWhikbwYUZWO9mMenEjj0pnEv_BQ5_B_dBEdoayjDYvKaQ8A5ZKkLHtgWOsQ1kaI6AHKUV9TDqCUB/s320/pics+005.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5565793060317771330" border="0" /></a><br />Food addiction. According to Wikipedia it "is<b> </b>characterized by an <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder" title="Obsessive-compulsive disorder" class="mw-redirect">obsessive/compulsiv</a> relationship to food.<sup id="cite_ref-0" class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Food_addiction#cite_note-0"><span></span><span></span></a></sup> An individual suffering from compulsive overeating disorder engages in frequent episodes of uncontrolled eating, or <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Binge_eating" title="Binge eating">binge eating</a>, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control, often consuming food past the point of being comfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by feelings of guilt and depression. Unlike individuals with <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bulimia" title="Bulimia" class="mw-redirect">bulimia</a>, compulsive overeaters do not attempt to compensate for their binging with purging behaviors such as fasting, laxative use or vomiting. Compulsive overeaters will typically eat when they are not hungry. Their obsession is demonstrated in that they spend excessive amounts of time and thought devoted to food, and secretly plan or fantasize about eating alone. Compulsive overeating usually leads to weight gain and <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obesity" title="Obesity">obesity</a>, but not everyone who is obese is also a compulsive overeater. While compulsive overeaters tend to be <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Overweight" title="Overweight">overweight</a><span style="text-decoration: underline;"> </span>or obese, persons of normal or average weight can also be affected. In addition to binge eating, compulsive overeaters can also engage in grazing behavior, during which they return to pick at food throughout the day. These things result in a large overall number of calories consumed even if the quantities eaten at any one time may be small. When a compulsive eater overeats primarily through binging, he or she can be said to have <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Binge_eating_disorder" title="Binge eating disorder">binge eating disorder</a>." It's not like any other addiction because we need food to survive. You can't just stop eating. Some people eat to live but others live to eat. I fall under the live to eat category. I eat when I am happy, excited, sad, angry, depressed, stressed...pretty much I can use any emotion or situation as an excuse to eat. It's something I've struggled with all of my life but I find as I have shed all of my other nasty addictions the food one bears its ugly head more and more. It's been over a year since I've had Clover and I still haven't shed all the baby weight. I have come to terms with my body and am mostly comfortable in my own skin but I want to be healthy. I don't need a supermodel body just a healthy one. I have been given this strong healthy body and I choose to abuse it instead of nurture and strengthen it. Somewhere this has to end. It has been three days since I started a cleanse to change the way I think about food and give my body a new start. It's going really well. I feel good about all of it. I have modified it a bit to fit my needs. The original <a href="http://mastercleansesecrets.com/step3.php">Master Cleanse</a> includes no food whatsoever and lasts 10 days. I feel like although this is definitely cleansing it is also hard on my body. It cuts my entire caloric intake to 675 calories a day. My goal here is not to lose weight (although that is a plus but only temporary, once I start eating again it will all come back) but to retrain my body and mind how I think about food. Only last night did I decide to modify it. During the day, which is the most stressful time for me, I have chosen to drink the lemonade from the Master Cleanse instead of eating breakfast and lunch and then have a healthy dinner. Hopefully by not giving myself the option to gorge myself when I am stressed or having a hard day I will be able to break the hold that food possesses over me. I don't feel deprived by any means. Being able to eat a meal at the end of the day really changes my whole mindset. I am not completely cutting myself off and instead of saying NO FOOD I am saying not right now. I tend to do the opposite of what I am told to do. There is something in me that just has to rebel to prove you wrong and that I can do that. "Watch me." Famous last words of mine. At times this has served me well but it can also be a downfall. I am super excited and very optimistic. Right now I am shooting for ten days. Depending on how I am feeling I might go longer but for sure 10 days. I get to do a lot of "soul-searching" with this. I am definitely on a journey and who knows where it will lead but it will take me somewhere and I choose to make that an amazing place.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-13993388676242165332011-01-06T08:34:00.000-08:002011-01-06T09:01:42.108-08:00I have the most handsome husband in the world...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoWU5ox0QCsyidfD6tbVrOA3EzJajq5MxH-gwk1VHMS_nGg5UTtBRE_05Sd5Xl2uZJVK7Y4mxWEDQGXtKxmZequTiKsB5dDriroyIvf-wOu3jMIx1HRdchYB7QQS2SQizWIVprFdr_6gN6/s1600/pics+014.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoWU5ox0QCsyidfD6tbVrOA3EzJajq5MxH-gwk1VHMS_nGg5UTtBRE_05Sd5Xl2uZJVK7Y4mxWEDQGXtKxmZequTiKsB5dDriroyIvf-wOu3jMIx1HRdchYB7QQS2SQizWIVprFdr_6gN6/s320/pics+014.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5559118945182784370" border="0" /></a><br />Things are going pretty good. Pete is falling into his new role as a store manager really well. I am so proud of my amazing husband. Today is the actual grand opening so it will be crazy busy. He didn't have to be to work until 10 today but left around 8 because he was so anxious. I don't blame him. He will do great. He has been working like crazy getting settled and everyone ready. I don't envy his 12 hour days. This will only last a couple of weeks thankfully and then I will have my husband back. He hasn't had much time for anything but work and sleep.<br /><br />I turned both Penelope and Clover's car seats around yesterday. I can't believe how fast things are moving with my little girl. She is just that too, not a baby anymore but a sweet little girl. She can say mama, dada, grandpa, grandma, and sign milk, all done, more, and eat (all of which has popped up only in the last few days except for milk.) She waves goodbye, blows kisses occasionally, and even plants a big wet one on you when you are least expecting it. Clover doesn't crawl anymore but walks all over the place and runs when she feels the urge or is trying to get away. I am blown away by how much she continues to grow and develop. I couldn't be more proud of my kids. Their smiles light up my day.<br /><br />Mason is cute as ever. He came back from his trip fully potty trained. YEA!!! He loves to wear his big boy underwear. The day before his big trip was the first time he went an entire day in big boy underwear with no accidents. From then on he just decided that diapers were a thing of the past. I am so proud of him and his major accomplishment. At times I thought it may never happen but here we are. He has grown an inch and a half in the past three months. No wonder he has been eating like a horse and his pants are all getting too short. I love the little conversations we have. Sometimes he will ask me three or four times in a row what I am doing just to keep the conversation growing.<br /><br />I am doing the same old same old. Watching the four kids can at times definitely try my patience. I love being able to stay home though. I think I am going to look into finding something to do for me however. I would really like to get a gym membership. I think that would improve my overall attitude and be a good stress relief. This month it probably won't happen but I think next month it will be a good possibility. I found a counselor for Mason which I am pretty excited about. He has adjusted amazingly but I feel like it will be a good outlet for him. I love these super cold but sunny days. They are so refreshing. I get to go to San Diego Feb 3-7. I am so excited. Clover and Mason are coming with but unfortunately Pete has to work. Sad. Oh well. Next time I guess. I always miss Pete's guts when he isn't around. I kind of like that guy a lot I guess : ) Life is pretty good.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-62199223392058290372010-12-30T08:44:00.000-08:002010-12-30T09:02:41.826-08:00Don't leave me hangin'<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXU7v4FU8VdqVGsq0UDWbatqIhg1vTRFpp6dj9hr6UucDPmz38-YTDDUE4RXO1uYLUcFx_6zpF2FkbGfqW03Nu6Zvm-61zPv4pJwZ2TAlpcT1lOBASqhc1_zQg_rLxGCbUQQPr8MKbzkDW/s1600/SANY0264.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXU7v4FU8VdqVGsq0UDWbatqIhg1vTRFpp6dj9hr6UucDPmz38-YTDDUE4RXO1uYLUcFx_6zpF2FkbGfqW03Nu6Zvm-61zPv4pJwZ2TAlpcT1lOBASqhc1_zQg_rLxGCbUQQPr8MKbzkDW/s320/SANY0264.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5556521809074326674" border="0" /></a><br />It's been a bit since I last wrote a blog so let's do a little catch up. Christmas was a lot of fun. Mason went with Laurie, Brenda, and Eryn on a road trip so we had our Christmas a week early. First we went to see Despicable Me (new favorite movie by the way), then home for some burritos and presents. Mason was so tired by the time we got home for presents he could have cared less. The next morning however he was super stoked about all the new toys. For Christmas Eve we went to Jasmine for dinner with the Rogers and Beth, Wally, and Laura. That was the best present ever. Five years ago in that same restaurant Pete asked me to marry him. Everybody was there and we were all reading our fortune cookies. Pete waited until the end. He said, "Mine says Kristin will you marry me?" I was speechless. He held out the ring and said "Hey don't leave me hangin' ". "Oh...yes!" One of the best moments of my life. I can't believe it has already been five years. Ahhhmazing! I'm glad we got to go there for dinner. On Christmas we hung out with the Roger's, ate Costco muffins and watched Despicable Me. It was pretty rad. All in all it was a nice relaxing weekend. Mimi and I decided one of our new Christmas season traditions is watching White Christmas. What a great movie too! It wasn't quite a white Christmas for us but this week, especially today it has been pretty snowy. I LOVE IT!!! I am all about the snow. Things are going pretty good. Clover is cute as ever and I miss Mason's guts. Pete is doing amazing at his new store. I am so excited to see what the future holds. Life is great!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-66826454190889899272010-12-20T09:36:00.000-08:002010-12-20T10:33:50.175-08:00Praise You in This Storm<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhE4vCsDTeGbj3-MEG53OfeY_giabjL1ycyXds79nKdQcFYzpRE5tO00MPFzRz8lyOD0bgFfu6INh3Gs4Lmhv-wA9B73p_y1aqDRImphrRJZS4Y4rP1B7GE1Muq0K_16zb3ZLXumqFaYrX0/s1600/010.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhE4vCsDTeGbj3-MEG53OfeY_giabjL1ycyXds79nKdQcFYzpRE5tO00MPFzRz8lyOD0bgFfu6INh3Gs4Lmhv-wA9B73p_y1aqDRImphrRJZS4Y4rP1B7GE1Muq0K_16zb3ZLXumqFaYrX0/s320/010.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5552833357703674626" border="0" /></a><br />Pete got promoted!!! YEAH!!! I am so stinkin' proud of that man there aren't enough words to express it. He works so hard to provide for our family and I am eternally thankful for him and all he does. Pete deserves this promotion more than anyone I know. It is definitely a new chapter in our lives and I am so excited to have the opportunity to share it with him.<br /><br />Let's talk about the newest addition to our family. I so love and appreciate having him as a part of my life. He teaches me new things and old things again everyday. I love waking up and seeing his sweet face peeking around the corner bursting with excitement for what the day holds. Lately it has been a bit of a struggle. He has made the choice on a daily basis for the past week and a half to not take a nap. I would have no problem with that except for the fact that he then turns into a child I no longer recognize. He throws fits by the bucketful, talks back, screams at me, pushes every one of Kelton's buttons he can find, and just really struggles to find his happy place. I know this is all a part of his age and self discovery in this very difficult time but geez louise!!! It is not all directly related to the napless days but those definitely contribute. I know when I am tired how much more ornery I get so I can only imagine what it does to three year old. Right now I am taking everyday just one at a time. I feel totally helpless, not at all prepared or capable, and just all around a little bit down. I think every time something happens it make me feel like a failure as a mom. Everyday I look at Mason and tell him how much I love him even when we have these hard days. After every time out I make sure he knows that I love him no matter what. This too will pass. All I can do is my best and continue providing love and support to this sweet little boy. I am so thankful for the support I get from Pete. He blesses me everyday with his strength and amazing attitude towards life! God has brought all of us together; Laurie, Mason, Pete, Clover, and I; for a reason. I am thankful for such a wonderful family!!! Mason is going with Laurie and Brenda on a trip for two weeks in a couple of days. I sure am going to miss his little guts.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ype1xE0wzsg">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ype1xE0wzsg</a> This is one of my favorite songs and definitely speaks my heart during trying times. It is called Praise You in This Storm by Casting Crowns.<br /><br />On a happier note, we had our little Christmas with Mason last night since he will be traveling. It was a lot of fun. First we went to the movie Despicable Me. Hilarious!!! I love it!!! Then we came home ate burritos and opened presents. Mason got a ton of new things because not only did he get the presents form my parents, grandparents, and Pete and I, he also got a bunch of new stuff from the neighbor across the street. The neighbor has a few grandsons and they have grown out of some their toys so he gave them to us. He gave us a little people farm with all the animals, people, tractors, etc. Also a Mickey Mouse race track with cars included and the entire small soft set of Chuck the Dump Truck and friends. Amazing!!! Mason couldn't decide which one to play with. He just kept going from one thing to the next. How fun!!! It was sweet to watch him. Today is going to be an amazing day, the beginning of an amazing week!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-46663118929003388852010-11-04T21:26:00.000-07:002010-11-05T06:13:28.908-07:00Oh Man!!!My baby is walking! Wow!!! I just can't even believe it. I keep running over and over and over it in my mind. She is WALKING. She gets so excited after about five or six steps she goes straight forward but really AHHHHHMAZING!!! It's crazy how proud I feel for her accomplishment. I want to tell and show everyone. I took her to Pete's work and then drove to Grandpa's and after that went over to Mimi and John's just to let her show off her latest trick. Is she really old enough for this? Has it been that long that she could pull this off? What happened to that little baby who could barely open her eyes, who slept for hours on end and laid content in my arms? Oh the first time I laid eyes on her my heart melted. A little slice of me and Pete right there in my arms. What a precious little gift from God. Not only is she a walking machine, her first birthday is coming up. This all just blows me away. I just hold tight each precious little moment I have with her, storing it away for a rainy day to play back in my mind as she grows. Remember when....<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dycuQJddcFxpLaWhCbYr_mE2K8PI3EC_dStSJJ-nC_SLFYXEhagWZicS43Pwr15G4-M09iDdc0YSMLYxn_LSw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe>Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-35327280915077271902010-11-01T11:55:00.000-07:002010-11-01T12:03:43.860-07:00This is Halloween...I know I already did a blog today but I just had to do one more. Halloween. What a fun time we had. Saturday was a blast. First we went over to Beth and Wally's for a fearsome Halloween party. What a treat! The kids had a lot of fun and it was great to be able to sit back and enjoy the merriment. Everybody looked awesome in their Halloween costumes. Clover was a little lady bug (she even wore her hat for trick or treating) and Mason was Spiderman shooting countless webs at everyone he met. I sure wish I had some endless web shooting cartridges! After that we went and picked up Laurie then headed over to the Rogers for some trick or treat fun. Mason got awesome webs painted on his face by the lovely talented Mimi Rogers. Thank goodness because if I had tried he might end up looking like a rotten piece of fruit or worse! It was cold and rainy when we went out but that just meant a little bit less candy for some munchkins. Not that they didn't get a ton and I already sample some...Yummy! All in all it was a lot of fun. Pete just laughed at me because normally I am not that into Halloween. We never celebrated it growing up and I never got into it later I guess. This year was different. It is so much more fun when you have kids! I highly recommend it. Costumes, candy, parties, trick or treating what a great day! Pictures will come later since I couldn't find my camera. Thank goodness for everybody else who were prepared to document such a fun day!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-748984615532252692010-11-01T08:23:00.000-07:002010-11-01T08:59:19.419-07:00Free Falling<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOUmOT51WIMhEJMbrBahbpxRZXLbNn5e-IsmNekcqR2EQxEori2JPO15HpzX1krlN0u4ayxDi4cXjkNWH94m2MajirPgd6bZxyQkphKm7y36BKQnxVpeLnIRzDJoKqEh5vhPxZrF1Iu-lv/s1600/forHil.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOUmOT51WIMhEJMbrBahbpxRZXLbNn5e-IsmNekcqR2EQxEori2JPO15HpzX1krlN0u4ayxDi4cXjkNWH94m2MajirPgd6bZxyQkphKm7y36BKQnxVpeLnIRzDJoKqEh5vhPxZrF1Iu-lv/s320/forHil.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5534611427438119362" border="0" /></a><br />Have you ever felt so excited you might explode but so anxious your going to puke your guts out at the same time. That's about how I am feeling. I am so completely excited about adding Mason to our family. He already is but the courts get to say so too and this will be the case on Wednesday. WOW!!! I feel like he completes us for the time being. I am also anxious about being who and what he needs me to be as well as keeping myself open and being what Clover and Pete need as well. I know I can do it I just get to find a balance and roll with the punches. However, I just want everything to be perfect. I want to be the perfect wife, perfect daughter, perfect sister, and perfect mom with the perfect kids with perfect relationships with everyone around us...Can you say perfectionist? There is no such thing as perfect I am quite aware but something in me craves that, almost needs it. I think this was instilled in me when I was younger and so desperate to please and I have never been able to shake it. Over the years that we have been together Pete has helped me to come to terms with a lot of things and accept imperfection as a reality but since we have had children I feel like I have reverted back to the old ways. The funny thing is, when I look at someone who has the image that I want to portray I feel sorry for the kids because they are not able to be kids. They aren't able to laugh and carry on and get dirty or joke or even mess up. I think that as a child these were the expectations for us. My dad was really sick for a long time even to the point of possibly dying without a kidney transplant and this tainted us being able to be kids because he wasn't able to handle the voracity of children. I kind of feel like that my childhood was stolen in a way. Now as I am raising children I desperately want them to be themselves, silly, innocent, priceless little beings but I am so stuck on my perceptions and the past that I am having trouble being everything to them I want to be. I love them with all my heart and only want the best for them. This means I get to do a lot of work to get back to where I want to be. I deserve that and so do they. There is a fun loving free spirited girl in there somewhere and these two sides are going to tear me apart if I don't let the past go and dive freely and fully into the future with my amazing husband, sweet children, and wonderful family. Here's to gettin' CRAZY up in here!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-44305681549072130532010-10-22T15:56:00.000-07:002010-10-22T16:26:35.950-07:00So....that's that.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHVIPk7bzEt-u0OGfigdrvQowOKaNyUc5bXdxAiBSNkHOagVzNhG1eA_abA0ZyQAlspjWORTcFbutufsqOMlUvvCpxrqSgU2e0-Wh_P3rm-sIOYi7U90otpiPuPmZ1imCTLB-z4dA3m7Wd/s1600/020.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHVIPk7bzEt-u0OGfigdrvQowOKaNyUc5bXdxAiBSNkHOagVzNhG1eA_abA0ZyQAlspjWORTcFbutufsqOMlUvvCpxrqSgU2e0-Wh_P3rm-sIOYi7U90otpiPuPmZ1imCTLB-z4dA3m7Wd/s320/020.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531015544046091890" border="0" /></a><br />I've been getting very mixed feedback from a lot of people about taking Mason into our home. Most is very positive and encouraging but I am also hearing some very discouraging things. Today I am feeling discouraged. I know beyond anything that this is the right choice. We are doing as God has called us to do. I understand this is not an easy situation for anybody involved. I understand there are many challenges ahead for all of us. I know I have never been in this situation before and don't know exactly what to expect but I am not in over my head. If given direction from God he will not leave you to fend for yourself. The right way is not always the easy way but I am willing to take it and face whatever challenge comes my way. I choose not to forget the negative but focus on the positive to prepare for whatever lies ahead. I am ecstatic that we have been chosen to take this sweet boy into our home. This is something that should be celebrated. Let's surround us all with support and positive feedback instead of criticism. Right now I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs and hiding in corner. We all love Mason and want whats best for him and it has been agreed by anyone and everyone that is involved this is what's best for now. We don't know what the future holds but I am still excited to see God's plan for my life, Pete's life, Clover's life, Laurie's life, Mason's life and everyone else I love and cherish unfold, so celebrate what an amazing gift we have been given with me!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-86785985469149694542010-10-21T08:44:00.000-07:002010-10-21T08:51:36.001-07:00Football!!!I get to go to the football game on Saturday! I am pretty excited. Brenda agreed to take both the little minkeys while we are there. That is pretty awesome because now I don't have to worry about a thing. I haven't been babyless for this amount of time all at once since before Clover was born. It should be fun. Adult conversation, hanging out with my super hot man and his dad and brother. Well, the conversation part might have to wait because I think the guys will be too involved in the game. That's ok. I hope the minkey's are well behaved. They usually are but when they start to get tired all bets are off. Here's to a good time and happy kids!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-13591802294365738922010-10-18T11:12:00.000-07:002010-10-18T11:55:40.860-07:00Family Fun<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiPQKtdmSLvU04hn5MX8gD_wzgGMODlmn-8RIhuqLs0C2inKFYuOqoVkbzkqNjbShUsBPlt2qk_O9ND-NnpAyStth04go8Pr-y3Wc-l6TNmsf5oKjk3lFEO1PfYQQFbLZD3YYXhwPGBdpQ/s1600/034.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiPQKtdmSLvU04hn5MX8gD_wzgGMODlmn-8RIhuqLs0C2inKFYuOqoVkbzkqNjbShUsBPlt2qk_O9ND-NnpAyStth04go8Pr-y3Wc-l6TNmsf5oKjk3lFEO1PfYQQFbLZD3YYXhwPGBdpQ/s320/034.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529458152599637954" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNaT16pEubpwk2xOwcZA0X2QoC3ypaQTrtsQLSvMFqDLNWOn6w55fE3oi53YbpkxdZe-lKKpW8mfGnI6-x1nkZr7mYkX7DPaEC8HV-iWDnJkToWhcl1TOAr7SoJTGplBSrN73bxIysmmU5/s1600/012.JPG"><img style="float: left; 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margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwxjxiAspm1CNrQ8cQANlZ-rM8ZhhiOz7d7kn4memBu6uWgjcEDn8_uA8Io9OUhu985HKzGBNrbyrUw9hPdKgXbEABBPiFCSxx5Nvhsq8u-vkyB6XoIKUb6oR_KsBRqKuXVHgt7MXfEOKi/s320/010.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529457121308280834" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNpteScDOlc9lcbQ4ffneA0y6pQJMnrj4BfyrMCmT5Xoto_H80wh7OEL0e1TUxIBVsWHXPwbXlx0XgrbsZIDQIDRrLrwVRGNNzLAu4DFx6Vj6TOqtN0BTGz5rvqIW7OyV0wUPjUJiKmGnJ/s1600/006.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNpteScDOlc9lcbQ4ffneA0y6pQJMnrj4BfyrMCmT5Xoto_H80wh7OEL0e1TUxIBVsWHXPwbXlx0XgrbsZIDQIDRrLrwVRGNNzLAu4DFx6Vj6TOqtN0BTGz5rvqIW7OyV0wUPjUJiKmGnJ/s320/006.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529457116335914066" border="0" /></a><br />What a fun weekend. Mom, Grandma, and Grandpa came to visit and I sure enjoyed showing off my kids. Pete took Saturday off and we drove up Big Cottonwood Canyon and eventually ended up in Park City. It was a beautiful drive even though on our way down the pass our brakes decided to start smoking. Never had that happen before but I guess when we have the Battleship loaded down with two kids, five adults and some gear it puts a little extra pressure on the brakes. After that we came home and had a delicious dinner with Beth and Wally. Sunday was a pretty relaxed day also. We ended up downtown watching the choir sing and walking around temple square. Mason decided to go in the toilet at Temple Square which was pretty awesome!!! I never thought I would talk about going to the bathroom in the toilet so much or be so excited about it, but man, what a Mommy Rush! I will definitely be excited when he decides that the toilet is way cooler than his diaper. After Temple Square we went back to Beth and Wally's and had naps all around. Amazing!!! Considering I had only slept about 3 and 1/2 hours the night before a nap was definitely in order. Then we all sat around and watched the little munchkins play and talked about ...well I don't really remember but it was way fun. Sam even came over and scared Clover with his beard. So funny! She hates it but eventually she warmed up to him when he helped her walk. That's her all time favorite thing to do right now is walk. In fact Friday night and Saturday night she spent about 20 minutes just using the little red, yellow, and blue car as a walker back and forth across the living room. So much fun to watch. The minute she gets up she gets a huge grin that takes over her entire face then she takes off. Before I know it she's going to be walking all over the place. I figure it can't be much different than crawling. She will still get into everything, but just be upright instead of on her hands and knees. Maybe she won't wear holes in the knees of her pants so much. Mason was super busy with his cars and the awesome track that got built so Uncle Sam was old news compared that. He loves his cars and I mean loves them. Wherever we go he has to have at least one with him but more often than not he brings a handful and leaves a trail of cars to the van because his little hands can't hold the load he wants to bring. It's super cute. Not only does he love them but he is extremely protective of the cars from the babies. You would think they have saliva made of acid that is going to melt his cars the way he gets when they start heading over his way. It is pretty funny. He is getting better though and even occasionally chooses certain cars the girls can play with. He is super soft and loving with Clover. It's really fun to watch them play together. I love having him around. I sure love my family to death and already miss their guts like crazy. We had a cry fest when Pete and I had to go home because that was the end of getting to see my mom and grandparents. I always took for granted the time I got to spend with them before. I have never lived more than an hour away from my mom so this has been a whole new experience. I miss her hugs and smiles and our mommy daughter dates. Some days I just want to pick up everything and road trip back to San Diego for a visit. I love to share my kids with her and am so proud to show them off. I love that everyone got to meet Mason. I am really glad that Grandma and Grandpa decided to come up too. When I was younger I really took them for granted but as I get older I feel the need to get closer and closer with them. It's amazing to me how much of a back seat I put my family in before. Now they are the most important thing in the world to me. If I had the choice we would all live in a family commune, each with their own house but a common meeting place for meals and some good hang out time. I love it when everybody is here. The more the merrier I think. Holidays are awesome because this is the case. Today I am having kind of a mopey day. I think it's the lack of Mommy, Grandma, and Grandpa. Oh well. Onward I guess. Here's to coffee and kids. I probably wouldn't get out of bed without them some mornings.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-11734912764972387382010-10-15T09:52:00.001-07:002010-10-15T09:57:10.364-07:00Confessions<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF_JpKyhvSjDFwRwjuJOA2hDTQ1T9NraOB-S2YQoCsqfxAOVspPx4WxeZowkIIfhIGMqukuFyu4MMnyTFi7nQVJnVUHXPThBQskhOgqVTdgZN6gjHbMQqsexwd8p3mNICN8BROsuQvI3UT/s1600/phoenix.jpg"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 172px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF_JpKyhvSjDFwRwjuJOA2hDTQ1T9NraOB-S2YQoCsqfxAOVspPx4WxeZowkIIfhIGMqukuFyu4MMnyTFi7nQVJnVUHXPThBQskhOgqVTdgZN6gjHbMQqsexwd8p3mNICN8BROsuQvI3UT/s320/phoenix.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528317652172240258" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br />I am not a perfect girl.<br />I am human too and will fail you often<br />I don't have hair that stays in place<br />I don't have the body of a supermodel<br />I can be a hypocrite<br />I won't always agree with you but I might make you think so<br />Don't say you love me to get on my good side<br />I love to be held<br />I'm shy<br />Talk to me be interested be genuine<br />I'm sensitive<br />I am creative<br />Don't lie to me<br />I love to snuggle<br />Protect me<br />I see right through you<br />I cry<br />I am a hippie at heart<br />Food is my weakness<br />I'm artistic<br />Sometimes all I want is for you to hold me<br />I won't make it easy on you<br />I'm not a princess nor do I aspire to become one<br />I don't always say the right things<br />I constantly question who I am, where I am going, and everything about myself<br />I love with everything I am<br />I am passionate<br />Sometimes I sleep with my stuffed bunny<br />I have a beautiful spirit<br />My body is filled with scars<br />Laughter is my favorite medicine<br />I love nature<br />I am a mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend<br />I would rather be behind the camera than in front of it<br />I am me and that is beautifulPookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-10926992868853225022010-10-14T19:19:00.000-07:002010-10-14T20:04:29.635-07:00New Beginnings<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvNGnMDXONCQg1gBuNrbnHGA31BuOL5WwjCcqg3Lax2dh_xcnMv_yDlFbRol11uBtG0FT2HcIDsG4EL68jEq-OdnK2y0H5-qKOR6-yrranPcapqFyFZlLi4b5XbZBmkU_GooddPriX81CT/s1600/SNAPDRAGON.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 280px; height: 293px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvNGnMDXONCQg1gBuNrbnHGA31BuOL5WwjCcqg3Lax2dh_xcnMv_yDlFbRol11uBtG0FT2HcIDsG4EL68jEq-OdnK2y0H5-qKOR6-yrranPcapqFyFZlLi4b5XbZBmkU_GooddPriX81CT/s320/SNAPDRAGON.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528103305281369298" /></a><br />I am super excited that my mom and grandparents are going to be here tomorrow! That's right people, they will be here, in beautiful Salt Lake City. Amazing. On a spur of the moment decision, a couple of weeks ago, they decided to drive the 12 hours just to see yours truly and a few other people. I can't wait!!! Did I mention I was super excited?! Anyway, I am also excited for them to see Clover in all her crawling, hand holding walking, toothy glory. She is super animated now and it's definitely time for a visit. Also they get to meet the super sweet new addition to our family, Mason. Crazy! For the time being and forever in my heart, I have a son. He is the most precious little boy one could ask for. I am loving every minute of it. How amazing it is that I get to be a part of all this. I know that one of the reasons we were brought up to Salt Lake was to be able to love and cherish this little boy. I am so grateful that Mason's mom chose Pete and I, out of so many wonderful people, to be able to take in the love of her life. What a journey we are on. I have such an amazing husband. Out of the blue one day as Pete was getting ready for work I decided to bring up what I had been feeling for a little while. To my relief and amazement Pete said, "I feel the same way and I thought that was the plan all along". Really?! Amazing!!! Now here we are. Tuesday we filed for guardianship and our court date is November 3. This is such a blessing. I know that it will be a challenge in many ways but I am ready to face those challenges head on. Bring it! From the moment I met Mason I felt a connection with his little spirit. I know in my heart he is in the right place and I am thankful that those in his life feel the same way. How amazing is it that God can orchestrate things and put people in just the right place at just the right time. Wow! This is such an amazing life!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-60606403609886492322010-09-20T07:13:00.000-07:002010-09-20T07:43:09.042-07:00My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-b1nLjTqxuofZ_JByF7qCmsU8C_tu6rYE23SlhOQQ7-dakNsjr8nKpiS8qzVvzvmySsTVCfgNbS1lxnEngZAM7DblMIQQB3sbJ7wgwypDSm-QPOd3Qnw5hMDxmhtSrYQzlM6TXinWHR68/s1600/cloverbear+009.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-b1nLjTqxuofZ_JByF7qCmsU8C_tu6rYE23SlhOQQ7-dakNsjr8nKpiS8qzVvzvmySsTVCfgNbS1lxnEngZAM7DblMIQQB3sbJ7wgwypDSm-QPOd3Qnw5hMDxmhtSrYQzlM6TXinWHR68/s320/cloverbear+009.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5519006273150208258" /></a><br />I love reading the bible. I will go through periods where I won't even pick it up because I get caught up in the craziness of life but it has so many wonderful things that speak to me and teach and encourage me. Lately I have been struggling with not having all the material things I want... a house that we own, not being able to just buy all the toys my kids could ever dream of, clothes that are new and not from D.I., gifts for Pete, etc. Just struggling at times with money. Today I was reading in Ecclesiastes 4-6 as well as 2 Corinthians 12 and it really spoke to this. In Ecclesiastes he was saying basically the richest man is not always the happiest. When we die nothing of this world goes with us. We can't bring to heaven anything that we carry or have worked so hard for...material things, status, anything but a humble heart. As Beth says it all ends up in the landfill anyway. And it does! How amazing and profound that is. It is so easy to get caught up in the things we don't have but when you take a step back and look at all the blessings we have been given life is completely beautiful! Even the trials are blessings. My needs are taken care of. We have a roof over our head, food to eat, clothes to wear, cars to get around town, diapers for our sweet girl, an amazing daughter and family, everything we need has been provided for us. We came up here knowing it was God's plan but having no idea how we were going to support ourselves and low and behold Pete was offered a job that asked him how much he needed to make to support us. Amazing!!! When we needed a bigger car for all the little munchkins God provided a way for that to happen. Even in San Diego when we first got married money was extremely tight. Pete was working as a barista at Starbucks and I was an assistant manager. We could barely cover our bills. One month it came down to paying rent or paying out tithe. Hard decision. After much thought and prayer we decided to pay our tithe not knowing how rent would be payed but confident that somehow we would be taken care of. The next day I received my bonus from work two weeks early and it was just enough to cover the last part of rent that we were missing. Wow!!! My point is we don't need a ton of things to be happy. God is faithful and will always provide. The happiest people in life don't always have the nicest newest things but make the most of what they do have and use the trials to become stronger. Thank you Lord for all that you do and all that you have blessed us with.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-43350298395067321932010-09-17T21:16:00.001-07:002010-09-17T21:45:55.593-07:00Time flies whether you're having fun or getting a good punch in the face!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJP7plKa5aIRqh12inmwlcnb3MTfKawhC3O-_UOCe_ChIwUd5bzq1QGpW8f1Lh0vDK67ggB79ubGa4ow5J9Ojq25u3vwU-oOVN1uaYgazurWySQjY1qie8KDTWsCAAghzLuMAYV8s3xsc6/s1600/cloverbear+016.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJP7plKa5aIRqh12inmwlcnb3MTfKawhC3O-_UOCe_ChIwUd5bzq1QGpW8f1Lh0vDK67ggB79ubGa4ow5J9Ojq25u3vwU-oOVN1uaYgazurWySQjY1qie8KDTWsCAAghzLuMAYV8s3xsc6/s320/cloverbear+016.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5518110141298038626" /></a><br />September 17 already wow!!! We have been in Salt Lake for 7 1/2 months already. I can't even believe it. My sweet Clover Bear will be 9 months old in 5 days!!! How amazing this life is. I love my savior deeply!!! I am so thankful for my relationship with Jesus Christ. Without him I would be lost. He directs my paths. He comforts me, calms me, loves me, and has forgiven me. Amazing!!! <br /><br />Clover is working on some teeth. It's been a nightmarish four months because of it. Waking up every 1-2 hours is not my idea of good sleep for her or me. Coffee has helped me get through many days. The days are fine it's the nights that kill me. At first I couldn't understand what was going on. At two months old Clover had started sleeping completely through the night then all of a sudden 5 months hit and BAM!!! No more. When I figured it out that she was trying to pop some teeth through ( and by some I mean 6...I wouldn't expect anything less from my little minkey) it gave me some peace because at least there was a reason for the madness. Some nights I was fine but others I was just plain worn out. All I could think about was sleeping. I couldn't want anything more at times. Clover and I spent many nights on the bean bag out in the living room. From there she would go to the swing, then maybe my bed, but rarely her crib. Sometimes I felt like I was losing my mind. Then last week one of the six teeth she is working on popped through and possibly some others but I have a stubborn child who refuses to let me check. Amazing! She only woke up once and spent an entire night in her crib. WHAT?! Sweet...and it keeps happening. Even if she wakes up this past week all I have to do is put in her pacifier and rub her back for a minute or possibly rock her and she is out. I am so appreciating this. Tonight she even let me rock her to sleep. Not once in her 9 months on this planet has she ever let me do that. Usually it's a roller coaster ride to even get my sweet girl to sleep. We have used the following techniques:<br />1. car<br />2. rocking her in the car seat<br />3. swing<br />4. walking and bouncing<br />5. letting her cry it out for a couple of hours<br />6. nursing to sleep<br />7. music<br />8. vibrating machine for crib<br /><br />Probably some others too but I can't for the life of me remember. I am amazed at tonight and the past week. She has been cuddly even. Putting her to bed at night I first get her sleepy then when she is in her crib just sit by it to reassure her that I am not leaving. Sometimes, even though she can barely keep her eyes open, she does the crawl like a dying man in the desert, collapsing a few times before she makes it to the side of the crib then pulls herself up and lays her head on the side until I pick her up. Who can resist such a sweet baby. Then we cuddle until she falls asleep. I am loving every minute of this. I think we may have turned a corner here. Crib and sleep does not equal the devil...say it with me Clover. Let's pray for the best. It is all totally worth it even though there have been a few times (sometimes at 3AM) that I have told Pete over a screaming Clover that we are not having more children ever again!!! However, if I get to have little munchkins as amazing as this one I would do all over again! I just wanted to write that down so I can look back when I am having an off day or night and say "Oh yeah...there are good times too." Sometimes in the middle of it all any memory of a good experience disappears and all I remember are the ones where I am crying as much and as loud as Clover. :)Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-32896814720081398892010-09-09T09:30:00.001-07:002010-09-09T09:52:47.135-07:00This Thing Called LifeIt's an amazing feeling to know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in life right now. I always hope I am doing the right thing, making the right decisions, listening to what God has planned for my life and the steps it takes to get there but I am always so uncertain. This morning I just feel an amazing confirmation that no matter what happens I am where I am supposed to be. I never thought I would end up in this place. I've taken so many wrong turns who knew I would be able to untwist the path I had taken and end up right where I am. Amazing how God can take things and use them to bring you to where he wants you even if at times that is on your knees. I wouldn't change how I got here. There have been many highs and definitely some extremely low lows but it has made me who I am. For those of you who don't know my story I will share some of it. At 18 years old, after several years of using a razor to cry tears that never came I decided that life was not worth living and downed a bottle of sleeping pills and chased it with a pint of Guinness. It wasn't my time and by the grace of God I was able to drive myself to the hospital and survived. Not long after I started using alcohol to kill the pain. I loved being numb to it all. This led me to other things and I ended up finding first weed, then ecstasy, meth, and a number of other drugs that made me forget who I was, what I believed, and most of all the emotions that made me human. I spent a few years in a drug and alcohol induced haze and rarely saw my family. I was a mess and when I hit rock bottom I hit hard. I ended up back at home and with the help of my parents I was able to get clean. It wasn't to last. I met a guy and drifted right back into the lifestyle although it was more about the alcohol and weed than anything else. Alcohol was an easy out. After being together for a couple years the guy and I broke up which caused me to fall deeper into the alcohol than I had ever been. It was at this time that I met Pete. He came into my Starbucks after a bender himself and asked me out on a date. It was this day that changed my life forever. I know for a fact that God has a plan for my life if nothing else because I should not be here right now. There were so many times that I know God had to have sent more than one angel to guide me safely through life. believe with all my heart he sent me Pete to share this journey with and to encourage and lift me up when I am down. He is an amazing person who inspires me to better myself. Now we share a wonderful life together with an amazing little girl. Thank you Lord for guiding me and saving me from myself.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-6363680386140415872010-07-28T21:22:00.000-07:002010-07-28T21:28:40.147-07:00He's got the whole world, in his hands.PSALM 86<br /> Hear, O LORD, and answer me, for I am poor and needy. Guard my life, for I am devoted to you. You are my God; save your servant who trusts in you. Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for to you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call to you. Hear my prayer, O LORD; listen to my cry for mercy. In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for you will answer me. Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord; no deeds can compare with yours. All the nations you have made will come and worship before you, O Lord; they will bring glory to your name. For you are great and do marvelous deeds; you alone are God. Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. The arrogant are attacking me, O God; a band of ruthless men seeks my life—men without regard for you. But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness. Turn to me and have mercy on me; grant your strength to your servant and save the son of your maidservant. Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-60861810323919071742010-07-26T07:08:00.000-07:002010-07-26T07:26:47.392-07:00I sure do love his guts!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjplNUUiwRuBryLquCLaVrkeyB_78UEDB9mdm0NvlEUxnt0NvFSnz-doQHsBPQLOI3UtnPRlo6bRYp594Q1qEsTcAp1RRU-adMqrb_wP2o0Cs5nFcT9mgniw3h9arsdSbQMjhqlKSFkX80f/s1600/007.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjplNUUiwRuBryLquCLaVrkeyB_78UEDB9mdm0NvlEUxnt0NvFSnz-doQHsBPQLOI3UtnPRlo6bRYp594Q1qEsTcAp1RRU-adMqrb_wP2o0Cs5nFcT9mgniw3h9arsdSbQMjhqlKSFkX80f/s400/007.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5498221051869321954" border="0" /></a><br />Today is going to be a great day. I am completely refreshed from the weekend. I love those days where I get interaction with my husband. It's hard sometimes to balance baby, work, family, alone time, and everything else that comes along. I want to give him space and wind down time but I also just want to be near him, with him, in his presence. I am madly in love with my husband! It's so amazing to see our relationship develop. It has a totally different dynamic than before we had Clover. Sometimes she makes us work to keep the spice going. It can be trying at times but without the hard times I wouldn't know how good we have it. I miss his guts constantly and when I see him I still get butterflies. He takes my breath away! I am so blessed to be with my soul mate. I truly feel Pete is my soul mate if ever there was one. What an amazing man.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-4720303298597445482010-07-22T09:21:00.001-07:002010-07-22T10:04:30.016-07:00“Change is inevitable - except from a vending machine.”<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDMQTHYdVjsVzJQcCaEvoP5_aQz2WKmhtaPuMCCuqwtz1gCfsefeO3cttCsPxNFbE6ED38rowPASaQ_iRSUx9-QuI59kVd6b5vIwrimvjRk8GgIKaffMVKmuYOaNIO8FeDbH97cTiss7hP/s1600/001.JPG"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDMQTHYdVjsVzJQcCaEvoP5_aQz2WKmhtaPuMCCuqwtz1gCfsefeO3cttCsPxNFbE6ED38rowPASaQ_iRSUx9-QuI59kVd6b5vIwrimvjRk8GgIKaffMVKmuYOaNIO8FeDbH97cTiss7hP/s400/001.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496774329598344834" border="0" /></a><br />I get so tired of weight issues, and food issues, and looking in the mirror not liking what I see. Why should I have to count my calories? Why can't I just enjoy my food in reasonable amounts like normal people do? What is the deal?! I am so proud of everyone in the family for taking control of their eating and getting down to business but I just want to hide in a closet, stuffing my face with cheetohs or chocolate or whatever unhealthy, sugary, or greasy junk food I can get my hands on and flip the world the bird. All of it makes me want to scream! The other day someone looked at a recent picture of me and said how good I looked and that you could tell that I've lost weight. Awesome, however I looked at the picture and looking back was a heifer. I have never been a skinny girl but since Clover came around I am at my biggest. I was up to 245lbs in when I gave birth. I am down to 186 so I'm doing something right but dang!!! 245...really!?! I admit I am an emotional eater. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or any other self destructive behavior that I used to do and now to deal with my emotions I eat. Maybe I've never found a way to just feel for the feelings sake but sometimes I just can't deal. I don't want to feel I just want to be. However that in itself is a miserable existence, I've tried it. I want to throw my hands up and just say "I QUIT!!!!!!". I want to be healthy and be a good example to my sweet girl but am I woman enough for this job? I can teach her with my words all I want but actions speak louder than words. You may say, well quit wanting and just do. Easy for you to say. I've been trying to do for the past 27 years. Maybe it will take me another 27. This life has many trials and if this is the worst I'll take it. Someday I will get to where I want to be and maybe today is the day. If not today then tomorrow, or the next day, or the next...Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-8566212680015817382010-06-09T16:29:00.000-07:002010-06-09T16:44:45.376-07:00It's been over a year since I wrote a blog. Kind of crazy how fast time has gone. Since my last post I have given birth to my beautiful Clover Bear, quit my job, moved to Salt Lake, and started watching Miss Penelope Francis Rogers, among other things. It's been a roller coaster of a ride that's for sure. Some days I don't think I can keep up then others I have the most perfect life ever. My amazing husband got a job up here working in a restaurant 56 plus hours a week to provide for us while I stay home with the girls. I never thought I'd be able to be a stay at home mom and here I am living the dream. This is the hardest job I have ever had but I wouldn't change places with anyone. How amazing that I have the privilege to hang out with Clover all day every day. Not all moms get to do this. Sometimes I miss the freedom of the past but then I realize how amazing all this is. Pete and I created a little person who relies on us for everything. We get to help mold her into the woman she is to become. Wow! The thing I miss most is hanging out just Pete and I. The time we do get to spend together is just that much more precious. I've been sewing up a storm as of late. I found something I am passionate about and I love doing. I love to create and this is a forum that I can and feel like I succeed in doing so. Tomorrow I leave for San Diego o visit. I am so excited. I get pretty homesick here and sometimes feel like I am all alone even though I am surrounded by family. Well a baby calls so that is all for now.Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-46235476628105984012009-05-08T07:36:00.000-07:002009-05-08T07:52:50.258-07:00Burn the Saltines<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5WVCsaQSOdrqsTgUG3FIRd99lr5E9TbFDkLREZUEAjD9JO2eI7j0ceh9WEbVLH9tXaawV4Zc4XvEc_PlVevJcBXsmYtCK3xV_jdV9wiVAwftqX-FBCJnP2Z_tFJO20r910Vqji6EXuTPG/s1600-h/honeymoon+april+2006+236.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333466133643628370" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 303px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5WVCsaQSOdrqsTgUG3FIRd99lr5E9TbFDkLREZUEAjD9JO2eI7j0ceh9WEbVLH9tXaawV4Zc4XvEc_PlVevJcBXsmYtCK3xV_jdV9wiVAwftqX-FBCJnP2Z_tFJO20r910Vqji6EXuTPG/s400/honeymoon+april+2006+236.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>I wish I could say I love being pregnant but I've been so sick I don't even know what to do with myself. It's kind of funny because my mom and my grandma didn't get sick so I was so sure I wasn't going to get sick then about a week and a half ago the fun started. I'm not puking, which sometimes I think might make me feel better but I'm glad I'm not all the same. My husband is so rad. On those days I burst into tears because I can hardly move I'm so sick and I still have drag myself to work and be friendly somehow he just holds me and tells me if a crack head can do this you definitely can. Good ol' Pete. He does make me laugh. He's not quite sure what to do with all the emotions poor guy!!! At work I start looking at all the children walking around and gurgling babies and I get so excited because we're going to have one of those precious little things. How cool is that?! I'll just be glad when the pukie feelings go away for good. I'm having a good start to my day today so far which is awesome. Maybe I'll clean. My house hasn't been touched in about two weeks. We'll see. I'm pretty excited because on Tuesday we get to go in for the first ultrasound. Baby's first picture. Neat!!!!! Then I'll get a face to the little creation turning my tummy upside down. Everybody keeps telling me to eat crackers but even the thought of crackers makes me want to lose it. I've never been so anti certain foods in my life and saltine crackers especially. Little Penelope June or Repeat or whoever this little one I'm growing is not having crackers aparently!!!! I wonder if that will be something this kid can't stand when it joins us in December. Anyway. I will definitely be excited to move past this part of the pregnancy but I wouldn't miss this experience for anything!</div>Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8939412056987802065.post-69861470567751910402009-04-20T06:44:00.000-07:002009-04-20T06:52:55.582-07:00WE"RE PREGGO!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!Wow!!!! So on Friday Pete and I found out we're going to have a baby! Crazy!! I'm still in shock. I'm so excited. Pete is too. He's so cute. The day after we found out he went and bought two books on pregnancy nutrition, a week to week view of what to expect, a pocketbook of do's and don'ts, two journals, one for my purse and one for my pocket when I don't have my purse to write down ideas or thoughts or whatever, and a photo album to document the progress. Did I mention my husband is awesome!!! We moved the cat box out of the room because I can't come into contact with that at all. Some of the girls at work got us a little cap and booties that look like a bear with ears (PRECIOUS) and one of the girls had a baby not too long ago so she gave me a bunch of maternity clothes. How rad is that. I guess we are off to a good start. I'm going to make an appointment today to see the doctor. Unfortunately our insurance didn't transfer over like it was supposed to after Pete got laid off but there is a ton of free agencies that will help us out at least during the beginning until we can get the insurance situation fixed. No matter if it's a boy or girl I have clothes lined up. Two of the girls at work offered me their baby clothes and one has a boy and the other has a girl. I'm so excited I don't even know what to do with myself. Well I have to go to work but I'll be back!!!Pookypokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18282500443077444690noreply@blogger.com1